Speak! 1/3

My heart is beating i forgot it could
lately I've been feeling like i'm made of wood 
Any form of imperfection or neglection
has been sanded away 
My size is getting smaller
but at the same time i'm becoming a different picture

Its been a while since i was able to smile
to be a little specific,
if you want me to be realistic,
13 of January is when our friendship stopped being consistent

I Aim this direct, No time to protect
i dont need your consent,
your the one who put me in this predicament

This whole thing seems over and through,
but that's only the case for you

I have a lot to say
but you wont let me speak

You came to me to shut me up
that's kinda fucked up
So i'm standing up,
Man-in up,
Facing my demons
cause I've had enough
And I'm so fed up

I'm trying to put my life back together
at the moment while you sit back
and watch in enjoyment

If this is to be my future i want no part of it
I lost to many people to this heart break shit...